|Wow, what a week it has been!
I hope that you are well, in body, mind, and spirit. 😘
Here is my story: On Wednesday I sat down to record a new version of a healing practice that I wanted to share with you. I was all set, I had updated the script and reviewed it carefully. I would record the new version, listen to it to make sure it worked, and then write up my weekly email and send you the link.😥 That didn’t happen. 😬The state of our nervous system in any moment has a huge impact on anything we do. For me to record an effective healing meditation, my nervous system needs to be in a state of calm, aliveness, generosity, and peace. I read the headlines about what was happening in Washington DC, and what happened in my nervous system was definitely not peace. At first I thought I could settle enough to do the recording, and finally I realized that was not realistic.
|Notice your body, trust your body, don’t try to force it.
|In the past I would have felt pressure. In my mind I had translated my intention to send you an email once a week into an image of an army of anxious readers, sitting with chins on fists, crying out, “Where is Rosalie’s mail!?” and composing all manner of criticisms and complaints in their minds.
Seriously. Humans are amusing, amazing, ridiculous in what we construct in our minds based on our fears and anxieties. We have a special magic that allows us to turn loving people and neutral interactions into terrifying blobs of attack and critique. Of course it is neither amusing nor ridiculous to feel the emotional impacts that those made-up stories have on us. The stories are ridiculous but the fear and pain are real.
I participated in a guided journaling process in a group class this week that yielded a potent and juicy insight for me:
|Stop caring and just love.
|With respect to sending out emails, I need to not care what judgments people might be making about me, and I need to not care about how I might let someone down by not fulfilling an expectation that I myself made up.
Instead, I am invited to notice my breath, settle, and allow my shoulders to fall. Then drop into a space that has the quality of love, with gentleness for myself and with goodwill and good wishes for all of the beloved humans in my audience.
To say a bit more, for me, there is something about the word “caring” that automatically evokes thoughts and judgments. When I say, “I care about you,” it feels like it wants to be followed by a long paragraph of explanations.
When I say, “I love you,” the thought is complete.
When I “just love,” it seems to drop me out of my thinking brain and into my heart, where I have better access to wisdom and intuition about HOW to effectively love and care for you, or for whatever cause or project I am connected to.
So that is one of the ideas or practices that I am dancing with this week.
|Watch this space! More to come!
Much love to you in this new 2021 and all of your new beginnings!!